Sooo. i just got a tumbler two days ago and I finally decided to write my first entry on none other than the day before the day before xmas :) . Earlier in the week, I was feeling horribley depressed maybe even to the point of suicide, but now…i feel completely different. The holiday spirit has taken over in me and I feel happy. and uhm things are better with…..i’ll just call him, “ned”. Actually i went over to Neds house today for some k.a. recording time and viewing of k.a. videos. I love giving gifts because it makes me feel like i’m thinking for someone else and not being selfish.

Don’t you just love when you have this moment when you look at someone and they look at you and your looking into their eyes and it’s almost like things just stop and it doesn’t matter what’s going on, it only last for a momemnt before you both return to reality but for a little while you get to escape and just look into their eyes?  Yeah i’m pretty sappy and romantic.

I just relezised how immature i can be though. Not stupid immature i just don’t want to grow up sometimes. I still have stuffed animals in my room. I love thinking about my child days and around this time of year it was always so fun and exciting. I didn’t have to stress about exams or test or finding the perfect present. No. I could just stroll along down the frosty streets, my mother chasing after me,singing and gringing at the sights and sounds of the season. I look back at child today and wonder what it’s like now. Childhood is precious and valuable. If i won the lottery the first thing i would buy back would be my childhood. I think it’s important to do child-like things every now and them. but whos says? who says that making a boat out of tin foil and a paper bag and sailing it down a small stream is child-like why is it no long suitable for someone over the age of 10 to have fun ?

The next entry I’ll write will probably be next year and since this is the end of the year i have a couple things to say.

you- you have always been there for me and listened to me for better and wrose. I value you you with everything i have I think you are a wonderful beautiful person and i want you to think so yourself.

you- we haven’t talked as much as i would have liked but i still think of you as one of my best friends and you always will be. i miss you and i love you.

you-We are so a like and at times i take you for granted. I shouldn’t because you are such a loyal friend. I’m going to be really upset when i have to go to college and i can’t just crash at your house

you-differences set aside, when we get along, it’s amazing, it makes me really happy. you are pretty much my other half and i love you more than anything else. I’ve bitten the bullet over you many times but i find you more than worth it. Though you’ll never understand, i’m really going to miss you when your gone.

I hope that everyone has a great christmas!

avec l’amour

Miranda